Baby Bob

Here is a sweet one of Bob.

Baby Sean

I haven't been able to take a lot of pictures of Sean but here is a really sweet one of him sleeping.

Baby Bob's Blessing

I Miss the Laptop

We currently own 2 computers.  I know, know; the luxury, the luxury.  Our desk top is from 1999 and has less memory than my ipod.  The other is a newer laptop that Adam has as an appendage.  Since we have 0 memory on our desk top I cannot load our pictures onto it.  Since adam has the laptop as an appendage I cannot load our pictures onto it.  It is very frusterating because there are some really cute ones from this weekend.  Grrrrrrr.  Anyway we will probably invest in a new desk top during black friday.  Until then we will all suffer with sporadic pictures.

Guts

I wish I had the guts to live my life the way I want to live it. I'm a little embarassed to say that I don't even know all the major parts of what that would be. I guess with the move and with Adam gone all the time and being at the mercy of my children I've felt a little out of control. A little like I'm not sure of who I am or what I want exactly. Part of this probably comes from comforting myself that I will make it back into school. Everyone around me is going to school and it kills me a little bit. I really loved school and want to go back very badly. I like the learning and writing and testing part of school.
Part of it is arranging a schedule. I think that I've got this somewhat figured out. But I wish that I could do more.
A lot of this has to do with starting over. We are starting over. New place, new school, new people, new house, new doctor, new everything. But there are limits, like feeling scared to ask people to watch my kids, feeling scared to ask people over, learning to clean a new house and having people come over and see my disorganized house...Learning a new ward and a new city...definitely learning a new way to live. Amidst all of this I wish I had more guts to live the way I want to live. Whatever that is. Maybe the sense to know exactly what that statement means.

Tired!

I have been completely exhausted lately. I feel like a flat tire. It probably has something to do with the stress of hauling my family across the nation and adjusting to a new state, climate, ward, schedule, etc. I've been so tired and icky feeling that I even took a pregnancy test *negative*. I'm hoping that some zyrtec will help with the icky feeling and that just a little bit of time will help the rest. Abby has been exhibiting stress in her peeing way. It is much better today. She told me that she in nervous to start preschool. Personally I am counting down the days (first visit is on Friday). She is so bored and hyper all the time. I haven't decided if we are going to do mornings or afternoons. We're signed up for the mornings but I will always be late for the classes I have been going to at Bally's. A lame reason I know but still a factor.
Josh started clapping today! It was so cute. I will post a video of it soon. He has had a cold. We took him to the doctor today. He's healthy, except they worry that he doesn't eat any solid foods. The pediatrician mentioned popsicles. He tried one today. Stuck out his little red tongue and then pulled a face whenever I put the popsicle on it. He seemed to like it though snot and all.
Adam has his first test today. He is taking it now and I don't know when we will find out the results. He has been gone the last two days. We miss him.

The Importance of Children

Russell M Nelson at the recent World Congress of Families said
“Future happiness and even the future of nations is linked to children. Families with children need to be re-enthroned as the fundamental unit of society. We simply must value children more than we do.” (http://newsroom.lds.org/ldsnewsroom/eng/news-releases-stories/elder-russell-m-nelson-addresses-international-conference-on-families) I couldn't agree more.