The Set-Up

I will finish Abby's curtains and hopefully a couple of the pillows for her 'new room'. For the last two nights Abby has been sleeping in her own room and bed. Also we changed from a 9:30 or so bedtime to an 8:30 lights out bedtime about 2 or 3 weeks ago. This has made a huge difference in my life. I LOVE IT. We start bedtime at about 8:00 and are done by 8:30. She doesn't have to sleep but she does have to be in bed. We got her a little night-lite that she can turn on and off in the shape of a star that hangs above her bed. Then we have a few that are just plugged in. So bedtime is going a lot better. I am surprised at how quickly and nicely she has adapted to this new schedule. Seems to be good for everyone.
The potty training front is an entirely different story. We have been doing this for about a month straight so far. She has had a few token days without any accidents but still has an average of 1-2 pee accidents a day. However, if I don't take her she doesn't just go to the potty. She never makes it for a bm. Never tries. I have tried potty treats, stickers, songs, new panties, racing to the potty for fun, books on the potty, making her clean up after herself...In general all begging and pleading that I can think of. She will tell me if she has a pee accident but not a bm accident. Neither are upsetting to her. I am confident that she can tell beforehand that she needs to pee or to have a bm. However she will not tell me if she has to go and will vehemently deny needing to potty most of the time. So I just take her at regular intervals with varying degrees of excitement or distress on her part. I have no idea. I don't want to go back to diapers, I don't want to give up. But I also don't want to clean up after her anymore. Every week I just keep saying I'll stick it out for one more week and see how it goes. I keep trying to invent ways for it to be fun and exciting. I keep holding out for successes. But I am getting discouraged and tired. Diapers are becoming appealing. And she doesn't seem to care at all.

Updates

Abby finished swim lessons. She was advanced to the Pre-K level and may advance to level one when we go to swim lessons again starting next week. She went off the slide and diving board and loved it. Also she is potty training and doing great this time. I think it will stick.

Adam took the MCAT and is currently applying to a few md and do programs. Texas has a 'match' program so we may not find out if he is accepted until Feb. Also we purchased a used car for Adam to drive. It is the Hyundai Elantra that I blogged about earlier. It was a great deal and has worked out great.

Our little boy is getting bigger and much much more active. I went to the doctor today and he said everything is great. We are the right bigness. He was so wiggly that the doctor had to trap him to listen to his heart. Not comfortable for mom. Baby is good. Doctor said it is okay to keep working out. It is getting more difficult to run. I have added a full minute to my mile and with breaks my 'long run' is officially shorter than my 5k. I'm thinking about scaling down my milage a bit and doing more eliptical stuff. We'll see.

I am trying to prepare for this little boy to come in October while balancing Abby stuff. So far I have a lot of good luck at garage sales (thanks to Heather), and a lot of things donated (thanks Kelly), and a few things bought new at the stores. Abby is moving to a twin bed soon, probably will be part of her birthday. So all of these things and general bargain hunting have been consuming most of my energy.

What's Wrong With Me?

Lately I have just felt weird. Out of place everywhere I go. Like a fish out of water. It feels like a significant amount of my life has been spent searching for home. And here I am again. I just want to go home. I just want to feel like I am home.